“Through the blur, I wondered if I was alone or if other parents felt the same way I did – that everything involving our children was painful in some way. The emotions, whether they were joy, sorrow, love or pride, were so deep and sharp that in the end they left you raw, exposed and yes, in pain. The human heart was not designed to beat outside the human body and yet, each child represented just that – a parent’s heart bared, beating forever outside its chest.” – Debra Ginsberg
Today was a life-changer.
My baby walked across the stage and received his diploma. My youngest child graduated high school.
This is the end of an era, as they say. For 18 years I have watched a child walk in to a K-12 school building. 18 years of field trips, permission slips, Friday folders, spelling lists, fundraisers, parent/teacher conferences, concerts, plays, musicals, projects, snow days, . . . four children, a countless number of teachers, friends, highs, and lows. I have been a band mom, a soccer mom, a choir mom, a theater mom, a basketball mom, . . . you get the idea!!
These four have brought me more joy than I could ever have imagined. They have made me laugh, tested my understanding and patience, proven that I am NEVER to old to learn and no one is ever too young to teach, and have filled my heart to bursting too many times to count. I have NO clue what this new phase holds. My eldest duckling (in the sunglasses next to her brother) has been living on her own for awhile and working a full-time, “grown up” job so I’ve already dipped my toe into the “empty nest” waters. But I still had kids in school which felt comfortable. Today all of that has changed. I still work for the school district but that is just not the same as being a parent.
I’ve shed my tears through the “lasts” – last choir concert, last band concert, last large group contest, last musical . . . you get the idea – and I shed a few more today when he gleefully tossed his cap into the air. I love my kids and am fascinated by the individuals they have become. I cannot wait to see what the future holds for all of them but I would be lying if I said that I was not at least a little bit nervous about what it means for hubby and I as we tread these new waters.
Congrats, sonny boy. I could not be more proud of the man you have become and I cannot wait to see what life holds for you!